The school question has come back into the conversation lately. As in, what in the hell am I going to do about school? Some of you may remember I went back to school last spring for a semester and then found out I was pregnant with Evan. Whenever the discussion of school comes up my ADD comes out in the open. I want to do EVERYTHING, but I don’t want it to take away from my boys. Does that makes sense?
If money, time, and kids were not an issue I would truly throw myself completely into learning photography and try to build a business out of that. But, money, time and kids are an issue. I have started to actually “study” some through books and websites on photography, but I am timid about concentrating on it. I am scared to fall even more in love with it. I am scared that I will be ruined from doing anything else. I am the type of person that once all my kids are in school I am going to need something to fill some of that time…something creative and stimulating is what would be best. Photography is something that can get VERY expensive to get into and to get good at. Is it worth the risk of never making money to cover the cost of it? Is it worth going to school for something else and finding out later that I hate it?
Can I get over my fear of trying to get good and finding out I am not? Can I jump?
I know that feeling, and I just took a big jump recently. Although I have a good career, flexible hours, etc., and I’ve been at the same company forever, I have started the job search. Three resumes out the door – and I’m already freaking about the one callback I’ve received.
What if I stink at the interviews? Should I even move on?
Yes, it is worth going to school. Good luck!
I say go for the photography…
sure it can get expensive, but so can going back to school. Just for what I have seen on your blog you are a natural! I’de hire you in a heart beat to take pictures of my monsters!
Follow your heart, LaShawn!
Go for what you love. If I had done that, you would be talking to Dr. Mom, MD!
I agree with Laura. Go for the photography thing. It will be worth the extra $ and time if it’s something you enjoy doing! For the record, I’d hire you too!
I say do it, do what makes you happy, money or not…I have horses, they are my passion, sanity, and ‘smoking habit’. Will I EVER make money with them, no, probably never. We may even be in the poor house, but I W-I-L-L have my sanity.
I still want to go back to school to get my master’s to teach at a junior college, but for now I will go to summer classes to become a dsylexia teacher and concentrate on that for a while…just what needs to be done at the time.
After watching all the “New Earth” series on Oprah lately, all I can say is – I am hearing a woman with a whole lot of excuses to talk herself out of something that could potentially grow her into a more extraordinary woman.
Your mum’s last line in her comment really got to me.
Stop using excuses. Find some discipline. Oragnise your time so it doesn’t take away from your boys and let yourself flourish.
xoxo
As somebody who originally went to college for the wrong thing (and ended up HATING it after finishing grad school…) I have to say that you will probably end up saving money in the long run by going to school for what you are passionate about right now. Don’t wait. Because if you decide to pursue something else, you will always look back and say “what if…” And the “what if’s” will add up over time and will lead you down that original path eventually. I say “Go for it, girl!!! Take the leap!”