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The Last Single Digit…

February 1, 2009 at 11:17 am | In Crazy Woman with ALLLLL those kids, Family, Kids, Photography | 7 Comments

Austin,

I remember the day I found out that I was pregnant with you. I had gone early that morning to buy a pregnancy test because I just knew that I must be pregnant. When those two pink little lines showed up on the test I had so many mixed emotions. I was scared to death and excited all at the same time. I was so young and just starting out on my life outside of my parents house. During my pregnancy I read every book I could find that might help me prepare for what was to come. Nothing could have prepared me for the day you arrived.

You were so tiny and came so unexpectedly after a few complications. The first time I held you I was immediately in awe of you. And I was suddenly scared again. Would I make a good mom? If only I had known how much you would change my life.

While I love you and your brothers all the same amount, you will always be the one that made me a mom. One day I was just a pregnant girl, the next I was a mom. And I was in love. You have from the beginning always been able to bring a smile to my face.

Your infectious laugh has a way of digging me out of the darkest of holes.

You have been a clown from the time you could walk.

I really began to appreciate your kind spirit when Brodie was born. You immediately took the role of big brother with such a big heart and a big love. Brodie followed you around from the moment he could move.

You have continued to be the best big brother in the world. Your willingness to put your needs aside for your brothers continues to amaze me.

You are becoming a such a little man. It makes my heart hurt a bit when I think about the fact that next year you will be turning 10…double digits. But, I am so proud of you. You take life head on and love everyone you encounter. You are so much like me in so many ways…some not so good. Your insecurity in yourself breaks my heart. I know that you will overcome all obstacles thrown in your path.

I pray that you will live your life serving God and others. I can’t wait to see what the future holds for you, but just don’t get there too fast.

Love,
Mom

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jeeezzeee…thanks LaShawn! Now I’m crying at work!
Happy birthday, Austin!

Comment by laura — February 3, 2009 #

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You made me cry also – there is something a mother feels when she looks at her baby for the first time – no words can describe it, or explain the depth of our love. And the depth of that love will never diminish. Austin is a beautiful, remarkable young man – you have 4 great boys!

Comment by Susan — February 3, 2009 #

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Aw, what a sweet letter! I hope you’ll let him read that. Happy Birthday to your son!

Comment by junebug — February 4, 2009 #

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You totally summed it all up right here:
“While I love you and your brothers all the same amount, you will always be the one that made me a mom. One day I was just a pregnant girl, the next I was a mom.”

I only have one, but it is so true… they turned us from girls into moms! How truly crazy is that!

Comment by Jamie — February 6, 2009 #

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Simply beautiful! Happy Birthday Austin!

Comment by atlmom — February 8, 2009 #

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Happy Birthday, Austin!
Love, Clara

Comment by Janet Moos — February 16, 2009 #

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